18/09/2026 | another txt entry because i was in the mood for it.

18/09/2026 | today i'm trying to get my energy back. don't know how but i'm finding it. i need more caffeine (n ssri) than blood to do it but i can make it. i feel all tickly AHHHH

felt like writing something. when i'll find a way to blog/dump in a more aesthetic or socially acceptable way, maybeeeee i'll do it. but for now txt file :3

*all gyaru gifs are from pixel soup xx

**did u realize i lowk see myself in her or?...

17/09/2026 | I (kind of) want to share my thoughts from time to time. I'll probably do it here, like a blog. At least, if I don't change my mind about the overall disorganized structure of my site LOL.

Today I'm worried about life continueing around me, regardless of me being ready or rotting away in my house. I swear, I promise to whoever (both things i NEVER do for taldetali motivi), I'm not lazy. Dying and rotting away feel so easy because you don't have to do anything to make it happen yourself.

Though I don't really mind all this (not the way I should, at least) I'll start to give myself some power to move out of this.... situation.

The first things I want to do is:

  • do a calendar for taking my meds (one that FOR THE UNIVERSE' SAKE, I MUST FOLLOW)
  • walk in the park at least once a day. don't care when, where, oxford comma or how
  • take my driver's license
  • unclutter my living spaces (2)
  • clean my room
  • get a dog
  • get piercings + tatts

    • Not ALL in this order fa SHO. I should take before pictures of my spaces and myself, do an accountability blog for them and keep myself on track.

    In Italy, we say "aiutati, che Dio ti aiuta" but the only 'god' that'll help me is me here #fml ughhh

    I'll start by looking up how to make a calendar/task manager by MYSELF because you are the maker of ur own destiny ig. just accept it while it still doesn't count that much. life starts in ur 30s anyway. ig i'll js try to get ready by that time.

    i like to use justwrite (dot) page 4 my writing burst + i js upload the txt file on dashboard XOXO